Guns and Love

One night I am suddenly woken by the sound of a car pulling up in my driveway,

I look at the clock, its 2:20,

I go to the window and stared out to see your beautiful figure getting out of your car.

I run down the stairs and open the door.

There you are, standing there all beautiful but with anger in your eyes,

I stare at your right hand and gasp.

You put the gun to my forehead and said, “You fucking bitch, how could you”,

I walk backwards but you grab me by the hand and drag me to your car and push me into the passenger seat.

We drive off down the road and you begin to talk,

“Why did you have to do this to me? You’re the one I love the most in the world. I”

You pull up at our favourite spot and get out of the car,

You begin to walk to the passenger side and I can see tears in your eyes,

You take me by the hand to the seat where we first made love and sat me down.

“You’ve broken my heart too many times before, now we must both suffer”,

You put the gun to my forehead and kiss me,

“I loved you”.

“But I didn’t do anything, I still love you”, I say,

“Oh don’t give me that rubbish you bitch, I know what you were doing I’m not fucking stupid”, you say

I begin to cry as you lean in for another kiss.

“I loved you and now you’ve broken my heart to many times before. I can’t believe I trusted you with my heart”, you whisper,

I can feel tears running down my face and see the anger in your eyes,

“I need you to believe me baby, I never did anything, is there any way you can trust me again?” I ask my voice shattering.

“Only one thing will make me trust you again. Kiss me, make love to me now and never let me go again”, you say,

I lean in and kiss you,

Our tongues meet and once again I feel the warmth as my hands do their best to make you trust me again.

I suddenly awake and see you asleep on top of me,

I begin to run my fingers through your hair remembering the night before,

You awaken, look up at me and smile.

“I love you with all my heart and nothing will ever change that, I promise”, I say and kiss your forehead,

“I know, you do and I love you too”, I see the gun in your hand rise and I gasp,

“But I thoug…” I begin to say and then you throw it away,

Empty Dream

The essence of the world confudled to make an empty dream incomplete

The severe signs that my breath is getting weaker

The essence is boiling now,

The empty dream of a depressed teenager,

The essence is almost complete,

Only one person can complete my dream of darkness, uncertainty and death.

The essence is completes and my uncompleted dream fades into the shadows of the darkened room where I lay only thinking of you as my dream becomes incomplete.

My life evolves around you

My life evolves around loving you,

Your long-dark hair as my fingers slide through it,

Those deep blue eyes as you long and care for me,

The sweet taste as your lips touch mine,

Your hand sliding down my back,

How much I want you, you don’t know,

My life would be useless without you,

Just a never ending hole in the universe,

You are my one and only true love,

I feel you slide your hand down my pants,

You then lean in and kiss me,

You start lifting my shirt up but then,

I wake up to face reality

It Hurts to Love You

It hurts to love you,

It hurts to feel this way about you,

It hurts to think about you,

It hurts to talk to or about you,

It hurts to see you,

It hurts to be so close to you but you don’t know I love you.

It hurts to live in this dark hole,

It hurts to live,

It hurts to not be able to sleep,

It hurts to sleep,

It hurts to be alive,

It hurts to be so close to you but you don’t know I love you.

It hurts to breathe,

It hurts to think,

It hurts to love,

It hurts to cry,

It hurts to be me,

It hurts to be so close to you but you don’t know I love you.

It hurts to hurt…